you're meant to be here

like right here, right now!

I know this because I think there may be part of you that knows deep down you are struggling to keep it all together with racing food thoughts, endless food rules, and constant self criticism....

And I'd like to hold space for that part of you right here on my blog.

My favorite quote is an old Swedish proverb that says, "joy shared, joy doubled; sorrow shared, sorrow halved." So linger a while here and let's double some joy and halve some sorrow.

how anxiety shows up as food intolerance

Food intolerance is often over diagnosed while food anxiety is overlooked. We somatically experience food intolerances the same way we experience symptoms of anxiety. Emotions are powerful. They shape our experiences, drive us to respond and react, and viscerally show up – that’s how we know they are there. While emotions start in the brain, […]

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eating disorder recovery

knowing vs. *knowing* that eating your fear food is okay

I spent yesterday baking my favorite cookies and listening to Christmas music. It was glorious. My favorite Christmas cookies are these molasses spice cookies that are from my “Silver Spoon Cookbook.” It’s the cookbook I watched my mom cook and bake from every single day growing up that her mom collected and hand wrote all […]

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eating disorder recovery

nature’s reminders for eating disorder recovery

We are on our way back from Hawaii where we celebrated three years of marriage. Jared and I decided in our engagement that we didn’t want to buy gifts for each other on our anniversaries, but instead save throughout the year for a trip where we can make memories together. So far we have gone […]

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eating disorder recovery

how to eat adequately on the not-so-normal days

This weekend was SO full for us. For the past three years, aka like our entire marriage, Jared has had to work every other weekend. So at least my normal is two very, very calm relaxed weekends every month. He will be start CRNA (certified registered nurse anesthetist) school this January, so we are in […]

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false alarms need new associations

It’s not uncommon that an individual living with an ED experiences fear, anxiety, worry, and nervousness with food. And when I say uncommon, I mean it’s common and constant. That fear, anxiety, worry, and nervousness are REAL. Those feelings are visceral. They are valid. What they aren’t are reliable. A brain with an eating disorder […]

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eating disorder recovery

my relationship with cookie dough

“It’s complicated” is how I felt for a long time. I grew up in family that loves sweets. We often baked and my mom was really great about providing me a wide variety of foods. Sweets were never inherently bad, but I remember feeling like dessert was the ultimate, pinnacle of satisfaction with eating and […]

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eating disorder recovery

life without compulsive exercise

Years later, I am still resting and learning to live in my body. There’s nothing about compulsive exercise that is healthy. I used to use my body, but it was all to live outside my body and for a certain body. Now, I am practicing to live inside and with my body. Compulsive Exercise can […]

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life

to my girls off to college

Ahhhhh!! I am so excited for you. So excited that I made this 9 page guide to give your the basics on food, exercise, and body image as you start this new season of your life. Going into my freshman year, all things food felt really overwhelming. I am really proud of my younger self […]

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eating disorder recovery, life

some days I don’t eat any vegetables

Just like somedays I don’t eat any “sweets.” What was your first reaction to that – a hint of celebration when a day passes by without dessert or a tinge of guilt when you look back on a vegetable-less day? There’s a some good insight behind that reaction. Diet culture praises one and vilifies the […]

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eating disorder recovery, food

Pandemic Body Changes

Our whole world changed this past year. Why would it not be okay if our bodies changed too? I think on a day-to-day basis, we lose sight of how much this pandemic affects our lives. Take a moment, if you’re able, and think about all the ways COVID has changed your world in the past […]

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life