you're meant to be here
like right here, right now!
I know this because I think there may be part of you that knows deep down you are struggling to keep it all together with racing food thoughts, endless food rules, and constant self criticism....
And I'd like to hold space for that part of you right here on my blog.
My favorite quote is an old Swedish proverb that says, "joy shared, joy doubled; sorrow shared, sorrow halved." So linger a while here and let's double some joy and halve some sorrow.
We are on our way back from Hawaii where we celebrated three years of marriage. Jared and I decided in our engagement that we didn’t want to buy gifts for each other on our anniversaries, but instead save throughout the year for a trip where we can make memories together. So far we have gone […]
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This weekend was SO full for us. For the past three years, aka like our entire marriage, Jared has had to work every other weekend. So at least my normal is two very, very calm relaxed weekends every month. He will be start CRNA (certified registered nurse anesthetist) school this January, so we are in […]
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I was just on a two week long trip with my family….there were lots of pictures taken 🙂 Some of them I like and some I dislike. Years into my own recovery and body image journey, I interact with photos I dislike differently than I used to and I wanted to share those boundaries. 1. […]
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Ben & Jerry’s Half Baked Ice Cream was a really emotional food for me. There is a relationship that I used to have that brought me a lot of pain. This person failed me in many ways *and* they also did what they could, with what they knew, with what they had. I often felt […]
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It’s not uncommon that an individual living with an ED experiences fear, anxiety, worry, and nervousness with food. And when I say uncommon, I mean it’s common and constant. That fear, anxiety, worry, and nervousness are REAL. Those feelings are visceral. They are valid. What they aren’t are reliable. A brain with an eating disorder […]
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Let it be known that what prompted me to start this blog post was a lawnscaping business card delicately placed in between our mail box and the flag thingy. No other mail box on our street that I could see had one. Is this passive aggressive or aggressive aggressive LMK. Generally the lawn is all […]
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Last month, we got back from California on a trip with my family!! My parents are extremely generous and have included me and Jared on several amazing trips. This trip was unlike any other due to the chaos that was the weather, plans falling through, and a really unfortunate case of food poisoning from food […]
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Sometimes my brain gets sticky. I get frustrated with my anxiety when heavy and/or unwanted thoughts keep circling right back up to the forefront of my brain. Calling that “my sticky brain” is a helpful way for me to add a degree of separation. Which often allows me to reflect vs. react, which is typically […]
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“It’s complicated” is how I felt for a long time. I grew up in family that loves sweets. We often baked and my mom was really great about providing me a wide variety of foods. Sweets were never inherently bad, but I remember feeling like dessert was the ultimate, pinnacle of satisfaction with eating and […]
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Tonight, the Bachelorette starts and I am pumped. I also am grateful. For the past few weeks, every time I turned on the Bachelor in Paradise (lol), I legitimately felt gratitude stirring in my heart. Which sounds ridiculous if you have ever seen BIP, but it’s where I am at. Every week day, I sit […]
