you're meant to be here

like right here, right now!

I know this because I think there may be part of you that knows deep down you are struggling to keep it all together with racing food thoughts, endless food rules, and constant self criticism....

And I'd like to hold space for that part of you right here on my blog.

My favorite quote is an old Swedish proverb that says, "joy shared, joy doubled; sorrow shared, sorrow halved." So linger a while here and let's double some joy and halve some sorrow.

false alarms need new associations

It’s not uncommon that an individual living with an ED experiences fear, anxiety, worry, and nervousness with food. And when I say uncommon, I mean it’s common and constant. That fear, anxiety, worry, and nervousness are REAL. Those feelings are visceral. They are valid. What they aren’t are reliable. A brain with an eating disorder […]

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eating disorder recovery

recovery costs (literally & emotionally)

Let it be known that what prompted me to start this blog post was a lawnscaping business card delicately placed in between our mail box and the flag thingy. No other mail box on our street that I could see had one. Is this passive aggressive or aggressive aggressive LMK. Generally the lawn is all […]

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eating disorder recovery

my relationship with cookie dough

“It’s complicated” is how I felt for a long time. I grew up in family that loves sweets. We often baked and my mom was really great about providing me a wide variety of foods. Sweets were never inherently bad, but I remember feeling like dessert was the ultimate, pinnacle of satisfaction with eating and […]

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eating disorder recovery

to my girls off to college

Ahhhhh!! I am so excited for you. So excited that I made this 9 page guide to give your the basics on food, exercise, and body image as you start this new season of your life. Going into my freshman year, all things food felt really overwhelming. I am really proud of my younger self […]

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eating disorder recovery, life

some days I don’t eat any vegetables

Just like somedays I don’t eat any “sweets.” What was your first reaction to that – a hint of celebration when a day passes by without dessert or a tinge of guilt when you look back on a vegetable-less day? There’s a some good insight behind that reaction. Diet culture praises one and vilifies the […]

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eating disorder recovery, food

lent & your relationship with food

This Wednesday is Ash Wednesday, that prompts the usual question, “what am I giving up for lent?” Common items to give up for those 46 days include social media, TV, and food. And of course you don’t give up food entirely, it’s usually sodas, dessert, bread, added sugars, or foods deemed as unnecessary (aka “junk”). […]

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eating disorder recovery

what’s normal eating

Sugar-free, gluten-free, egg-free, dairy-free, wheat-free, caffeine-free, fat-free, GMO-free, carb-free, soy-free, salt-free. Those all sound not only fun-free but mental-sanity-free. And sure, there are allergies and intolerances to certain foods. However, eliminating foods to be hip wid it or in hopes to lose weight is harmful. It’s also unsustainable. Dieting is one of the top risk factors for […]

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how to get back on track

It’s Monday. Maybe this past weekend you “let yourself go” or you “cheated” a lot and now you’re wanting to get back on track. First of all, I am all for fresh starts. They can be so refreshing and exciting! But I think it’s important to point out that a healthy eating pattern shouldn’t cause […]

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body & brain hunger

Body hunger is typical hunger, the kind where your stomach growls. Brain hunger deals with the emotions, like cravings and eating for the experience. Body hunger Body hunger includes stomach growls, headaches, shakiness, lack of concentration, irritability, and nausea. Without a doubt, find food ASAP once one or more of these symptoms start. Keep in […]

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body image, eating disorder recovery

if you have to cheat, then break up

It could be a specific diet with laid out meals. Or following a personal ideology of “good” and “bad” foods. Or rigidly counting calories. Or really just any eating plan that controls your food decisions. My guess is day after day of eating only “clean” foods and adhering to strict rules, that diet is going […]

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