you're meant to be here

like right here, right now!

I know this because I think there may be part of you that knows deep down you are struggling to keep it all together with racing food thoughts, endless food rules, and constant self criticism....

And I'd like to hold space for that part of you right here on my blog.

My favorite quote is an old Swedish proverb that says, "joy shared, joy doubled; sorrow shared, sorrow halved." So linger a while here and let's double some joy and halve some sorrow.

knowing vs. *knowing* that eating your fear food is okay

I spent yesterday baking my favorite cookies and listening to Christmas music. It was glorious. My favorite Christmas cookies are these molasses spice cookies that are from my “Silver Spoon Cookbook.” It’s the cookbook I watched my mom cook and bake from every single day growing up that her mom collected and hand wrote all […]

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eating disorder recovery

food narratives & offering another story

Ben & Jerry’s Half Baked Ice Cream was a really emotional food for me. There is a relationship that I used to have that brought me a lot of pain. This person failed me in many ways *and* they also did what they could, with what they knew, with what they had. I often felt […]

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eating disorder recovery

false alarms need new associations

It’s not uncommon that an individual living with an ED experiences fear, anxiety, worry, and nervousness with food. And when I say uncommon, I mean it’s common and constant. That fear, anxiety, worry, and nervousness are REAL. Those feelings are visceral. They are valid. What they aren’t are reliable. A brain with an eating disorder […]

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eating disorder recovery

recovery costs (literally & emotionally)

Let it be known that what prompted me to start this blog post was a lawnscaping business card delicately placed in between our mail box and the flag thingy. No other mail box on our street that I could see had one. Is this passive aggressive or aggressive aggressive LMK. Generally the lawn is all […]

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eating disorder recovery

my relationship with cookie dough

“It’s complicated” is how I felt for a long time. I grew up in family that loves sweets. We often baked and my mom was really great about providing me a wide variety of foods. Sweets were never inherently bad, but I remember feeling like dessert was the ultimate, pinnacle of satisfaction with eating and […]

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eating disorder recovery

life without compulsive exercise

Years later, I am still resting and learning to live in my body. There’s nothing about compulsive exercise that is healthy. I used to use my body, but it was all to live outside my body and for a certain body. Now, I am practicing to live inside and with my body. Compulsive Exercise can […]

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life

to my girls off to college

Ahhhhh!! I am so excited for you. So excited that I made this 9 page guide to give your the basics on food, exercise, and body image as you start this new season of your life. Going into my freshman year, all things food felt really overwhelming. I am really proud of my younger self […]

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eating disorder recovery, life

some days I don’t eat any vegetables

Just like somedays I don’t eat any “sweets.” What was your first reaction to that – a hint of celebration when a day passes by without dessert or a tinge of guilt when you look back on a vegetable-less day? There’s a some good insight behind that reaction. Diet culture praises one and vilifies the […]

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eating disorder recovery, food

bacon butternut squash soup

Today is my first Thursday of the semester without having my dietetic internship in the ICU. I spent the morning cozied up watching the Today Show while folding laundry, unpacking from FNCE, and running a few errands at Target. I also took Lou, the cutest rescue pup ever, on a long walk only to come […]

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food

what you don’t know about your weight

What you don’t know about your weight is that it is pretty useless information. Especially┬áconsidering how much time we spend thinking and attempting to change it. Knowing a person’s body weight is important for documenting a child’s development, prescribing medications like anesthesia, or calculating tube feeds. That is close to being it. In fact, the […]

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body image